I replayed Gears of War and it wasn't doing it for me. I haven't fired up a Bethesda game this year, and it's probably been close to a year since I sat down and actually tried playing one. I guess I'm losing interest. These days I piddle in my garden or make soap. Some of the herbs I grow make it into the soap and the soap generates enough cash to fund most of the garden.
As for Youtube; I don't have any words of encouragement for you. It's saturated and the tone has shifted from what it was even before COVID. It's as far removed today as 2015 Youtube was from 2007 Youtube. And it happened faster. The nebulous 'rules', faulty AI flagging, dubious algorithm pushing, or some activist team member twat can torpedo you for no fucking reason.